I’ve broken my computer, accidentally, and I won’t be on for the next few days until I can fix it. D

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
Since a few days before my thirteenth birthday. Until I was like thirteen point five, it was just little scratches to get attention. I stopped caring about that part of it then, and I started hiding it as it got progressively worse.
2. What part of your body is most affected by self harm?
My arm, legs, and psyche.
3. What is your motivation to recover?
Ugly scars, ugly mind.
4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? Why or why not?
No. While I crave it, it’s not to the point that I must have it. If I were determined enough and had reason enough, I could stop.
5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
Hiding shit.
6. What part do you enjoy?
Everything else.
7. List 10 activities that help you calm down.
Keeping busy is the only thing; the main motivation behind my doing it is the lack of thereness. I’m TOO calm.
8. What’s the most supportive thing anyone has done for you about self harm?
My parents are the only ones that know that have ‘done anything’, and they were not supportive in the least.
9. Have you ever taken a picture of your wounds? Discuss.
No. I find little point in that, personally.
10. How do you feel about your scars? When I am alone they are very comforting, almost a consolation; when with others they are one of my biggest anxieties.
11. Strangest Place (school, park, etc.) you’ve ever injured yourself?
In front of my parents on the porch around a coffee table, about three feet away. It was dark, and they were laughing.
12. Where do you keep your ‘tools’?
In a cloth doll I made, in a Pokemon card box, and sometimes in the back of my phone.
13. What is the biggest realization about self harm you’ve had?
That it helps, and doesn’t help.
14. Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?
No.
15. Do you visit any websites about self harm? If so, what are they?
Not directly about self harm, but it pops up frequently. Tumblr.
16. What advice would you give so someone about self harm?
You don’t need this. You do not need this.
17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves?
No.
18. Write a letter to the future (recovered) you.
Dear me,
Thank you for believing in yourself. You’re welcome.
19. List five reasons why recovery is worth it.
I don’t know yet.
20. What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm?
The most wicked, most gnarlyass bruise I’ve given myself, on the knee, purple and blue and literally black, and making excuses for it while still being proud if it.
21. Have you attempted recovery in the past? What are you doing differently this time?
I haven’t been doing this long enough to necessitate recovery.
22. Where do you feel the most calm?
It depends on my mind.
23. What’s your favorite inspirational quote?
I have none.
24. What are some of your main triggers?
The mirror, the scale, my family, my mind.
25. Do you know any statistics about self harm?
No, and I don’t care to know.
26. What is something that makes you the most happy?
Sarah.
27. Discuss any and all progress you’ve made.
I now wait for the scabs to heal before I cut again. Usually.
28. What short-term goals do you have?
Lose weight.
29. Do you know any self harm blogs?
Yes.
30. Post your favourite picture of yourself and write five positive affirmations.
No.